Eid Mubarak!!

Salamualay'kum!!
Eid Mubarak to all... Semoga syawal kali ini membawa seribu erti khususnya dalam perjalanan kita mencari redha Allah s.w.t... ameen!
Muhasabah Ramadhan lepas... markah teruk..kalo digrade based on PNG memang below 3... wuuu! Seperti kata my husband : " masa yg free tu membunuh!"... betol! flashback zaman di universiti, dengan kelas from 8 a.m to 5pm, assignment yang berlambak, program tarbiah yg terancang dan berjadual, tanggungjawab dan komitmen yang pelbagai... masa x banyak di bazirkan..(melainkan pada waktu yang betul2 free..)... tetapi walau se'busy' mana pun... sme kerja beres.. Now, sangat banyak masa free sampai jadi 'blurrr'... free sampai dah x tau nak buat ape.. sedangkan sangat BANYAK benda boleh n perlu buat!!! aiyo! So, senang cite ramadhan kali ini prestasi tidak cemerlang..sobb2! Tidak boleh menjadikan alasan morning sickness, penat dan sebagainya sebagai alasan... tapi tu la siapa suroh manja2!!! Belajarlah dari kesilapan wahai diri...

Sedar2 je Ramadhan habis... sekarang sudah syawal... sangat pantas masa berlalu.. Raya kali ini sangat berlainan! Raya kali ini 1st time beraya :

• tanpa family di sisi (sangat rindu!!),
• dengan suami tersayang (xde la sampai nanges rindu family..terima kasih kepada suami..:)
• pregnant.. sebelum ni x de pon beraya n pregnant...haha!
• luar dari Malaysia... (dah la tanpa family,.. huu) tp pengalaman beraya di new zealand sangat berharga!
• amik gambar banyak2 (bukan tradisi keluarga kami untuk bergambar beria2 di hari raya...haha!)
• tak dapat makan masakan ma...yang sangat lazat (preggie mom yang sentiasa craving!!) Rendang, ketupat palas, nasi dagang, tapai, roti jala,... agugugugugu...
  

apa2 pun... memang raya ni tetap best walaupun bersedih (terutamanya kerana Ramadhan yang tidak dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya..)... Pagi2, bersiap untuk solat raya, kena naik bus baru sampai... masjid jauhhhh... kalau kat Malaysia masjid ke surau ke.. semua walking distance..
Sampai masjid... MasyaAllah! Penuh!! dewan utama (muslimin n muslimat) penuh dengan muslimin sahaja... muslimat kena guna dewan serbaguna... dan saya selaku orang yang lambat.. solat di dewan makan2... tak pe..asal solat raya! Yang bestnya, time solat sme cam jeling kiri kanan...since lupa step2 solat especially part takbir tu... ngaa... biasalah, dah solat raya setahun sekali.... Khutbah raya sngat bersemangat tp sayup2 je dengar..since ramai lagi yang seronok2 bercakap (ye la... maybe jumpa pon sekali setahun..bila da jumpe berborak sakan la...).

Habis di masjid, kami beraya di rumah orang kemboja (namanya Nawawi), x pernah2 kenal orang kemboja nii... tapi since suami kenal so isteri kena jadi pengikut setia laa... (best x ade husband?haha.. jangan jealous.. :D)... Nawawi ni dah lame tinggal kat new zealand, pernah menetap di Malaysia (so tau sikit2 la bahasa melayu..)... sampai rumah dia, isteri dia sambut.. kami bantai makan la (keluar awal2 pagi xsempat breakfast..lapar!).. yang penting disini makanan diorang lebeh kurang je dengan makanan Malaysia cuma versi lain sikit...
Bihun goreng die cam lutsinar sket, rendang die manis, lepat pisang, kuih koci, roti canai petak, puding karamel kering(biasa makan yang berair) dan banyak lagii... ape2 pon bantai jela...
yang best lagi... geng2 se'kemboja' datang... and selama ni x tau pon ramai kemboja muslim.. so i asked them.. memang ramai kata mereka... MasyaAllah!! x pernah2 berkenalan ngan orang kemboja... dan seronok bila jumpa mereka beramai2... Perasan x? selama ini, di Msia kita di kelilingi oleh pelbagai kaum dari pelbagai negara n yang pasti tanpa berkenalan kita x tau mereka seakidah dengan kita!! Allahuakbar!... dan mentaliti kita selalu meletakkan orang indon, kemboja, bangladesh or senang cite..pendatang asing ini sebagai warga kelas bawahan (pandang pon x mau)... Padahal, pakaian takwa itu lebeh Allah pandang dari pakaian bangsa, pangkat dan sebagainya....

Balik dari rumah kemboja, kena rush.. suami ade test tengaharinya... aiyoo! raya pon ade test ke? Hari raya disini..student x dapat cuti...kesian kan...
pas habis test... kitorang sambung jalan2 raya ke beberapa umah... yang pastinya.. ikut husben..so raya pun rumah kawan2 husben la.. n konvoi2 sorang je wanita yakni diri sendiri.. malu2 tp ade husband yang berkepit xpela...
2nd rumah raye ialah rumah pojie selepas buat makan2 di rumah sendiri.. yang penting diorg hidang lodeh... mak aihh..pandai pulak budak2 ni buat..tapi alhamdulillah orang masak kita makan... xde la mengidam sangat lepas ni... dari Rumah pojie ktorang sapu dengan si pojie sekali pergi rumah hazim... yang best dirumah hazim adalah kerepek2 malaysia (pisang,bawang, udang) and kerepek oversea yakni chips... haha! best! sebab sebelum ni ade craving nak makan kerepek pisang yang nipis gituu... alhamdulillah! setakat ini dua benda dah lepas: lodeh and kerepek pisang...
ini cerita 1st day raya, habis di rumah hazim kitorang sme balik ke rumah masing2... Esokkannya, kitorg bercuti, dok umah je..tggu org datang rumah.. seb beq ade rendang Haq... kitorg x keluar shopping pon untuk prepare open house.. masak ape yang ade..and ala kadar... yang penting ukhwah n silaturrahim mesti di bina.. kann???

hari raya, part makan2 tu jatuh ke tangga ke berapa... yang penting time raya la kita nak ikat ikatan yang sedia ada supaya lebeh kuat... n membina ikatan2 baru... ikatan disini ialah ukhwah n silaturrahim sesama saudara seakidah yang ikatannya jauh lebih kuat dari ikatan darah sekali pun...

yosh!! pergunakan hari raya ini untuk membina & merapatkan silaturrahim...

"Siapa yang ingin dilapangkan rezekinya dan dipanjangkan usianya, hendaklah ia
memelihara hubungan silaturrahim´.(Hadith Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

dan yang lebih penting adalah masa untuk bermaaf-maafan sesama saudara samada di atas kesalahan yang disengajakan mahupun sebaliknya.. atau yang disedari mahupun sebaliknya....

“Jadilah pemaaf dan suruhlah orang mengerjakan yang makruf, serta jangan pedulikan orang-orang yang bodoh.” (Surah al-A’raf [7]:199)

Dalam ayat lain Allah berfirman:

“…dan hendaklah mereka memaafkan dan berlapang dada. Apakah kamu tidak suka bahwa Allah mengampunimu? Dan Allah Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang.” (Surah an-Nur [24]:22

Jadi, di sini saya mengambil kesempatan untuk memohon ampun dan maaf kepada keluarga n sahabat handai, kepada para pembaca jika ada salah n silap sepanjang perkenalan kita di alam realiti n di alam maya....

I'm Pregnant!!

Guess what?? I AM PREGNANT! and now it's almost 11th week of pregnancy...am still may not look pregnant to onlookers and that makes me a little bit frustrated. However, being pregnant at a very young age is a bless from Allah s.w.t, am now 23 years old and i'll become a mother at the age of 24...InsyaAllah! And on top of that, my parent will have more grandchildren..and more later... :D My little one will become their 18th grandchildren and that's for sure will bring a lot more fun and endless happiness to all.I've been married for 79 days now and we are both happy and our little one will strenghten our love..insyaAllah.

About a week ago, I had an appointment for an ultrasound procedure which cost a lot of money. My husband accompanied me to the Pacific Radiology Centre and it's just 5-10 minutes away from home. That's my 2nd appointment after previous consultation with the doctor. And I had to pay almost 90 NZD just for 20 minutes consultation, which at the end only prescribed 0.8 mg Folic Acid supplement, handouts/flyers on pregnancy, and futher procesures to follow. I'm started to feel lucky to be Malaysian, which I think you only have to pay RM1 for all. Ok, now back to the Ultrasound procedure, although it's veeeery eexpensive but i think it's worthful. The procedure confirmed that my pregnancy already at 9th week by measuring the foetus size(not sure how they do that though..). The wonderful thing is.. i saw the 'tiny guy' inside my womb is kicking and punching, and that makes me burst into tear. It's just soooo lovely and you can always say 'SubhanAllah' every time you see it... here is some pictures that i wanna share..


the heart beat.....the 'little one'... but i'm sorry you can't see him/her kicking/punching in this picture.. :D

You may wanna now... How big the little guy in this picture.. based on the ultrasound procedure.. the foetus was 28 mm long (that's about an inch) or about the size of a large grape. And weighs less than one ounce at, but will soon start putting on weight dramatically later on. And now, our little one is growing larger and larger as the pregnancy continues week by week. By pregnancy week 11 our baby should be big enough to hold in the palm of our hand which about 1.6 inches long and weighs almost .25 of an ounce. We could see right through the skin. Our baby's skin will remain paper thin, but soon it will become a multi-layered membrane and lose much of its transparency. By this point in time, our little one should be able to open and close his or her fists, and little buds are forming in his or her mouth that will eventually develop into teeth!

By pregnancy 11 weeks, our baby's fingers and toes have lost their amphibious-like resemblance, now they are separated instead of webbed. Our little one is taking advantage of the huge space she is floating in by kicking and squirming about. Just by knowing this fact i felt blessed!

Talking about baby's development, am also having my own journey of changes.. started from the 1st month of pregnancy, I don't feel that am pregnant at all. But the morning sickness started as soon as am entering the 2nd month of pregnancy. I don't know how to describe the conditions, but you know... symptoms like fatigue, dizziness, nausea, vomitting, headache.. and not to mention complex emotional disturbance. And who'll get all the tension? My husband of course... :D

I ever had blood vomiting as the consequence of forceful vomitting. And it;s not a pleasant experience to tell, I ate a lot that night due to Break Fast invitation (of course i had multiple meal at that time!). There's something stuck in my throat that made me coughed and strained the blood vein which caused the blood to burst out. The undescribable throat pain cames after i vomitted all the foods in my stomach, the saliva production increase and am hardly swallowed. It;s painful and it took me two days to get my throat back to normal.

Now, since it;s almost end of the 1st trimester the morning sickness started to say 'good bye' and my appetite goes up!! After few weeks of improper nutrition, dehydration maybe...and loss of appetite.. I regained! Not to mention that, I had few pounds loss... wish to get my fat back... :D

Fasting while pregnant is a very adventurous journey of mine... especially for the 1st timer like me. Some mention that 20-30th week of pregnancy is the best for fasting, and am fasting during 1st trimester. It's ok to fast if it's not harmful to the baby and the mother, and alhamdulillah am managed to fast till now. However, I hadn't fast for 4 days (1 day due to Ultrasound, 1 day after blood vomitting, 2 days of intolerable fatigueness) which I have to replace it after Ramadan.

I think that's it for now.... a lot more will come.. insyaAllah!