Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Today is better than yesterday..

The title above seems so hard to be true... at least for me..
salamualay'kum.. sahabat... yes! i'm back.. but i don't know how long am gonna stay... when i reviewed my last posts... i'd concluded that.. there's so much irregularities... and inconsistency in my writings... firstly, coz I don't have concrete reasons for my writing... and even I have one.. i don't really hold to it strongly that i wouldn't fall apart or flying away from the point! secondly, i didn't post regularly & consistently which then made my post started and ended wrongly... 3rdly, I'm not really good at writing.. and blogging is one of the way or medium that i can express my feelings toward myself or anything else...

I feel so bad about my own blog and at the same time... i feel a bit relief that i'm still able to write a post today... at least i can put my 'junks' here... ngee!

Around one month i left this blog... so i don't know how to start... can i juz write about my experiences here???yes... you can..write whatever you want...

on 16th Jan i started my clinical attachment in Raja Perempuan Zainab II Hospital... everything went really well.. except for few days of stress & intolerable! The only thing that's not going so good is my 'Iman'...well...since there's no 'usrah' along with the workloads which made me a little bit disarray....the ignorance & unawareness worsened the situation... I'm feel sorry to myself... But i'm grateful that I'm able to attend a 'usrah' here even with different 'naqibah'.. i felt recharged some how...

We all know that... when our soul were deprived... the same went to our performance either mentally or physically.... we can feel the significant different when our soul changed.. we'll be so stressful... or maybe suddenly feel sad even we don't know why we sad... we treat every work put on us as a burden... think and interpret every single things negatively... so...and so...
It seems like the negative charge or aura were surrounded us... without we realized it...
Talking about the physical consequences... we might feel so tired even after doing simple job... we also feel exhausted... feel really weak and disenergized... or maybe when we prick the needle to our finger..it feel like we stabbed our chest with the knife...
you may think i'm exaggerting... but that's how i feel... & people always be different in any sense.. In conclusion, so many negative thing will be when our weak soul enfeebled our mental & physical health!

To keep our performances either mentally or physically keep in escalating trend... don't you think we should be able to keep our soul strong and healthy as well..
since I'm a muslim... i should alarm myself on the importance of keeping my faith strong and unshakeable... but that's so hard to keep if we don't have friends around to remind us.... our family to scold us.... and even our naqibah to monitor and encourage us...

so...Thanks to all..who help me in 'managing' my soul whether directly or indirectly...

2 comments:

syaFiQah said...

Kak tusyyyy....it's been a long tyme..neway,it's forgiven.
N it's ur blog..so u can do anything with it since I'm doing d same :)
wahhhhhh...rindu!!!!!
Be strong tau...jags iman n amal..I'm struggling here too.alhamdulillah da start usrah kat cni last week...
Rindu kat akak jgk!!!cepat2 datang cni tau;)
btw..sye rase sye jmpe la bakal zauj ritu dlm flight..he n his brother I guess
selamat berpraktikal...kena kuat tau Kak!!sama2 kte kuat iallah

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