Reflection...

Today is the day I chose to write my post in Microsoft word which I never did before… coz it’s not my personality by being careful and cautious in my writings or even in what I am doing… I always prefer doing something recklessly.. everything for me is just a piece of cake… No wonder I wrote in regretful manner…

I am sure..that all of you don’t really know what I meant.. Somehow, you also might feel the same way but don’t know how to express and describe the feelings… me either.. Maybe end of this writing, you won’t find what exactly the means of this writing…

I made a lot of thinking about myself in 23 years.. and to be more precise ‘22 years 3 months and 17 days’… Have you ever asked yourself on how good you are in your living… what’s your achievement.. what is actually you gained in so many years of life.. all this while.. is it worthwhile? Or is it full of misery? and to be more relevant.. did I or did us… ever asked whether we able to set our ‘foot’ in heaven with all the good and bad things we have done before?

So many questions coming out of my head and it made my hairs stand… but I have to move on and find the answers… It’s seems like I’m in a race to unlock a code.. or maybe to untie the tightened ropes… it’s not a piece of cake anymore….

I don’t know the answer too.. but I’m so sure about what I should do… or at least I try to do… First, I have to think deeply and put myself in the ‘reflection room’.. and for me.. I prefer to think about myself and reflect on my deeds while sitting on the praying mat after night prayer (I’m feel sorry to myself.. coz I rarely do it..).

When the ‘ropes untied’…. It is compulsory for me to seek for the solution in order to keep it untied …. Am I able to find the solution? What if I am not? What if I am able to find the solution but don’t know how to start it?? Now I started to hate ‘What if’ questions.. coz it make me mad of unsureness…

I just hope someone can slap me hard on my face… But no one ever did… I ever slapped myself several times..but it doesn’t work as I wish… I need to come back to the reality….. and have a long sight on my purposes of life.. I had made myself dragged away by the strong current called desire… I need someone to hold me and pulled me away from it… it is shameful asking for someone’s help when you have to do it on your own…

Life as a platform for us to do as much as we afford to please Allah the one and only…

Life as a garden where we can plant good or bad crops which we can harvest later …in the Day of Judgment….

World is a big stage… where we are the protagonist.. and it is our choice to perform good or bad play….

The judgment day is a sure event that everybody will participate… no one excluded… it is our vital point of what our life really is… whether in heaven or hell…

So..let’s seek for Allah s.w.t forgiveness… let’s go back to the where we belong…